the worst taste in music
Minty made me some Ravioli. he’s a funny and interesting man. he also changes when he’s with his friends. he’s not the same old Minty. but sometimes i’ll be in his room and he’ll be out in the living room which is basically his room since me and my mom live in his room. and i’ll hear him scream “FUCK” or “LORD HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL” or...
hasta nunca mas
-"If you shoot someone in the head with a .45 every time you kill somebody, it becomes like your fingerprint, see?
But if you strangle one, stab another, one you cut up, one you don't, then the police don't know what to do.
They think you're 4 different people.
What they really like, what makes their job so much easier, is pattern. What they call a 'modus operandi. That's latin.
Bet you didn't know any latin. "
-"Why don't you use a gun?"
-"You can use a gun. I'm not saying you can't use a gun. Just don't use the same gun twice."
i missed the bus today and that kinda sucked. i slept in and i woke up a little earlier on that morning but it was still dark and i thought “gosh i should wake up” but i didn’t. i just went back to sleep. it’s not my fault because my pillows are so soft and comfortable. and plus i didn’t really want to go. that mike rapist kid is going and he always makes me...
yesterday i went to a funeral. first one. and i started to cry this morning. i haven’t been able to depict how much this has affected me in a smooth painless yet emotional way. i talked to mister bear this morning and i think it was the best conversation yet. how many days left? i hope none. i have to wash my face. i have to go in half an hour to sewing classes. i also have to cancel my...
i like it like this
i like it just like this. just like this. i like waking up and knowing that Brennan loves me. because i love him. i love him with all my heart. and for the first time in years, i believe it. i believe it and i'm so grateful for God putting him in my life. my life keeps getting longer and i keep getting older but not too old. and now i know where my life is headed. inspiration for my portfolio:...
1st. order is everything. must be prepared to buy things for keeping everything classified and in order. buy trendy and clean, clear labels. color coordination. 2nd. < EM> make sure to buy calming soothing color theme. colors like beige, white, neutral colors. invest in a good matress such as a temper pedic. get lots and lots of pillows. absolutely NO T.V. keep it for a serenity feeling,...
see me just sucking in the killer bees
Brennan and i said hello today at 6. we talked. and then we said good bye. 37 minutes later. i feel very complete when he’s here. i feel so complete when he’s here. and when he’s not i fall apart. i melt to the floor. everything hurts and i just want to sleep and never wake up. i want to sleep and never wake up. i wish i was going with dear ethan to visit Cali. i wish i was....
yea that margarita girl is pretty much beautiful. too bad i cussed her out in 8th grade. i thought she was a poser. but she’s beautiful. she’s hotter than Alexis Bledel. Brennan’s getting his tattoo pretty soon. he’s getting evaluated today at Black and Blue Tattoo. that place owned by dickes. and he sent me a Panic! At The Disco shirt. yea he’s the best.
i’m very sick. toxically sick. and i woke up this morning and my mom left the cellphone. so i guess it was a sign to call him again. but he didn’t pick up. and he hung out with adri last night. but for some reason that makes me mad. makes me paranoid. stefanie put up a new picture. i feel like we’re not friends anymore. people think i’m strange. jarad doesn’t like me....
maxy max asked me to prom today. and 2 girls said i was pretty. it was good day all in all. hella cold though.
last year on sunday
i told mister bear that i wanted to take him somewhere. and in my mind i thought about Union Square. that i would skip school and go to san francisco with him. and my dream would come true. i think he asked me at this moment, if i wanted him to kiss me last night. (saturday). and i said yes i did. and i don’t remember what else. but i do know that we talked for a long time. long long long...
plans for Mr. Bear
AHAHAHAHA. yeassdfsdfsdlkfjsdlk he’s coming! well in about 5 months. but that’s really close! so i’ve begun planning my outfits for the 4 days he’ll be here. and oh i’ll look so cute. he’ll love me. DAY 1: i pick him up at the airport, so i’ll wear my yellow/gray pattern baby doll tunic from Charlotte Russe, my gray leggings from American Eagle...
Dude, Keren. That’s a fat message man, and half of it I already knew...– re:damnman Brennan
lately i feel like coming home and just going to sleep. pretending that Brennan is there. today Max asked me if i was poor, and i didn’t know why the heck he was asking me that. and i wanted to say yes. but i didn’t’ know if i was or not. and then i said i’m poor. i don’t have a job or anything. so i guess that makes me poor. and then he said no i mean your parents...
i want mr. bear to worry when i don’t call him back. like that time we went to Lillian’s. and on the ride back. he touched me. and i pulled away from the touch of his fingertips. and it hurt to do it. but i wanted him to hurt alot more. for some reason. when he said ”why do you drive me crazy?’ i had felt a great sense of accomplishment and pride and the fetish to make it...